Film image #63
2023, Acrylic on board, 30x30cm
[25 January 2023] A mist, smoke, spersting persisting, separating me from you, making it hard to penetrate, to see into, onscuring onscuring obscuring the impression of something hidden in front of me, the feeling of something in front of me that i am not seeing, that is hidden to me, i cannot see it because i dont want to see it, i cannot see what i am unwilling to see, i have fear of missing out, fomo.
tumbling head over heeels, somersaulting.
something growing in the womb, a serenely pregnant woman, a pregnant woman, serene, satidife satisfied, healthy. What grows in her belly, in her womb? Attended by many creatures, caressing her, washing her, cleaning, cleansing her. The life force inside her draws from ner her, she sacrifices herself to the life inside her, and she is happy, then hungry. Angelic beings, watchers, gairding gaurding guarding protecting.
reading the tea leaves.
ugglers jugglers, curcus circus, Pegasus, butterflies, giants, fairies, owls, cats, the god of the garden, sitting on jer her throne.
the giant suckling, pissing, the giant growing fat, sitting on top of a pile of bones, the giant’s small dull black eyes behind bars. The giant likes to eat ...
[26 January 2023] You prepare a space for something to become known, you prepare a space for a word, a trigger tigger tiger, you prepare a space to be filled, You attach a trigger, a word, that confirms to me that what i am reading, seeing, feeling, goes into that space that you have prepared. That is how you make me wiser. Knowledge starts with you, there is no knowledge, no word, that can become known unless you first prepare a space and area, a precinct, an area, a preceinct precinct.
The ergon and the parergon, the supplement (Derrida), that presses up against the ergon, that changes the ergon, that fills a lack that is riveted to a lack within the ergon, the essence that attends to, and cleanses, a strange extraordinary supplement, attachment, that attends to the lack within it, frames, encloses, to bring anout about a disclosure. You prepare an enclosure to bring about a disclosure.
The unlocatable center. What is inside and outside the ergon? What is the parergon, that is not simply inside, nor simply outside?
The pregnant woman, something grows within, inside her, but that is not her, simply. When does the partition occur, at what stage of the feotous fetus foetus’ develop,ent development? When does the determination occur? The womb is the prepared enclosure, the space you prpared prepared for something to grow, a new concept, a new knowledge, to become known. to manifest you, the infinite you, without end, without termination, without determination. No amount of manifestation can exhaust the contours of your geing being, the i am that am, every manifestation reveals, discloses something of you, it grows in a womb, a space that you have prepared. The womb is an abyss, with no determination. Repeat the categorisation, the formation, another system of categorisation, another structure of concepts, a redetermination of the abyss, and its attending attachments.
Is my brain an enclosure? Am I an emclosure enclosure, a womb for some kind of manifestation of you?